I'm sorry.

As many of you have noticed I've acted a complete fool over '07. Whether I was justified or not, I went with the complete wrong way of handling my problems. I lost my temper and was not able to control myself. I've caused a lot of people grief and problems, and I was too stubborn to change my ways.

The entire Nin incident, yes, I don't think I was wrong, and I believe what I said was right. However, I believe I could of been much more assertive in handling it. I was a total asshole to most of the members here, some of which weren't even looking for problems, but rather speaking just an opinion they observed. Instead of acting as a counselor or leader that I should have, I acted like a pusher. I forced ideas onto others without compensation.

That wasn't the only time, either. Merc and I had a dispute, and I didn't handle my problems in private like I should have. Instead I exposed both of us to the entire community creating nothing but hate. It was not nearly as long lasting or large as the feud with Nin, but it was just as bad in the sense that it showed I had horrible judgment. Not in what I did, but in my methods of doing it.

And that still isn't all. I've acted like a little kid at times I should have been serious. I've hurt members without knowing it. I look back on these times and I can't believe I was so crude. To all those members out there that were hurt my childish ways, I have to say sorry to you, too. This is especially goes out to AK. I started a horrible joke about her, if any of you remember, and that's unforgivable. While we never took it to an extreme level in public, we had a few problems in private.

There's a million more things that I could say sorry for. To certain people, and for certain actions. Nobody has the time for this, but I would just like everyone to know that I didn't forget about it, and will try to fix my problems.

I'm posting this because I've realized that looking like a strong powerful leader isn't going to get me anything here. I'd much rather try my hardest to get on good terms with the memberbase. I would like to think that I've grown up a little since the summer, but knowing me I could just be tired with all the hateful arguments, with my character in that field being unchanged. You be judge, and if you don't want to forgive me. Whatever, it's not going to hurt my feelings.

Just one more time now, I'm sorry.