Alright, there's plenty of things making me do this. I'm kinda ridiculously high right now. There's some sad music playing. I went through girlfriend troubles lately. I saw Nin-Finity in the "Users online in the past 15 minutes" area, and I couldn't help but to feel sad about leaving this place. No, I don't like FES right now. But I used to love it, back when my mind was still weak, and it's standards were easily met. I can't go back to these times even if I tried, because, I have changed greatly from those who met me over two years ago.

I joined this place as just some stoner teenager that couldn't think about anything other than pussy and strength. I made some fast friends that way and had a lot of fun doing the fun little community events we had. Things that I consider to be ill spends of time nowadays. Then, however, it was grand. People like Nick, Andy, Sean, Curt and James really made me feel like I was a member of a brand new family. I was easily building deeper relationships than what I've been experiencing very fast. Many things contribute to that.

I was shallow as hell. Shit, son. I wasn't a deep thinker, merely focusing on "Will this do it the fastest and best way?" Sure, that gets shit done in a good way, but totally skips the life-changing details of each situation. I never thought ahead, and was pretty much just obsessed with my rock-star lifestyle that I was planning on lasting forever. I didn't really care to make friends, as I was over the whole enjoying things with others shit. Which brings another thing FES gave me. The ability to make relationships again. I knew people back in those middle school years. I know a shitload of people. I not once, however, really cared for or about any of them. Some of those same people are now valued friends now.

Now, this really was a damper to my general 'excel above others at everything' mindset. Because I really never gauged how good people where at things because I just didn't know. So the only things I really excelled at where obvious things like speed, strength and test scores. FES brought a new element that can't be found in the real world. True anonymity. People were critiquing everyone about everything. A lot of people. You wouldn't see this in a normal social situation because people don't want to rub others the wrong way by instinct. Without that people can't really see how they stand compared to the others around them very easily. Here I was able to go "So he's better at this than me ... better change that". I not only become a better spriter, but a better programmer and debater as well. The prior mainly thanks to Swords, though. But traits have been improved as well. My logic is beyond sexy. My word mastery has caused a lot of people to be pissed off. My decision-making, social interaction, rule binding, authority, and hell, even my strength thanks to Joey, have been improved.

I have a lot of thanks to give to FES. Making me into this person I am. I'm good at shit, to be my perfectly egoistical self. These fruits I wanted more of, though. And that caused me to try to better everything even if it meant by force. I would start arguments just so people could learn about the subject being argued. However, most people don't take kindly to that, due to the omgnoarguing problem that's spread across the US. Overall, I was socially selfish. Completely justified, SotF supported, but totally selfish. Sorry 'bout all that.

Anyways, the point is, FES was a good thing for me. It was also a terrible thing with all the stress it gives me. Hell, I have wrinkles and a tumour for fucks sake. Hahah. Luckily my super thick hair is still super thick hair. I don't know what I'd do if it began to recede.

So, I guess I'm saying I kinda want to fall back in. I want to work on the community again, and try to build that back up to it's prime state. This is really idealistic of me, and I doubt not my capabilities to present such a situation. Ambitiously speaking, that sounds like a fantastic idea, but the problem is it completely relies on other people. That, I'm not so worried about. It's just not my problem. My only real problem that makes me reconsider this is that I'm not going to be welcomed here no more, the same way I was back in the day. With the warm greetings, gentle jesting, and so forth. I won't see the faces I've accustomed myself to, because most of them are up and gone. I'd love to try to recover them, but eh, it's not such a likely event.

Also, while right now I could probably do this. Most predictably I'm going to be preparing for college next year. I don't know if I'd actually be able to carry out.

Anyways. Hahah, that probably sounded so stupid and ridiculous. But you gotta give me a break, my IQ has dropped to the point that I can't walk and breath at the same time. Can't wait to laugh at myself.

Welcome Back. I'm glad that you are back.

Welcome back.

You still have the highest post count.

I feel the same as you on this.

Even though you annoy me at times, the place wasn't really the same without you here. Glad to have you back.

We're always glad to have veterans back. Walrus Bladders. %::%

You smoke pot and blatantly said "I don't like FES right now" so I'm not very willing to approve of you helping out again. Well, perhaps the former just agitates me personally because of what I've seen it do to people around me with almost no exceptions, including leading my brother down a path to his current imprisonment.

Anyways, I'm assuming that's what your suggestion is, as this board is for suggestions. You want to be staff again, right?

Very much the latter.

Nice t'see ya again.

It's also for discussion. =P

Eventually staff powers will come in handy, but I still feel kinda new here so I'll be in a more observational mode than not.

Thanks for the cheesy welcomes, everyone. XD

See, I don't really get the description of this boards, as "Discussion" can be for anything. I figured it was more of a Q&A/Support type of board like at FEFF.

Welcome back.

A lot of people just like to talk about FES, so we just decided to throw those posts here. This is pretty much just a FES forum.

Thanks. ;)

welcome back. from what ive heard as summer come in and school GTFOs, some people might return, not saying who though :P

AK is back?!

Oh, no, it's just DH.

little bro is back. huzzah.